That was a lot. The other monkeys rejecting Macaque was terrible. It was awful. Then he became angry and hid who he was. He felt the pain of that resentment. The pain and anger and it was targeted at him. MK didn't interrupt. Then he met Monkey King and things were good but not perfect. The other Brothers didn't accept him either.
Then things got worse.
MK felt his heart clench. He swallowed. He let Macaque finish and remembered the burning of the mountain, the maze and those feelings, and that bar. He looked down at his hands for a moment before he turned his eyes to Macaque.
"Your memories kinda shattered those boundaries I was trying to build. I thought I should build them because it was...better for us both. I thought I kept messing things up. That I pushed you too fast. Into fooling around before you were ready. Pushed for you to open up too fast. I know I was pushing. I was saying I wouldn't but I think I did."
MK took in a slow breath. "I know that you need Donnie and Korone and they need you. I need you too. I am so sorry I made you feel like I was rejecting you. I'm sorry I did and I pushed you away. I am so sorry. I don't want you to be behind a wall or a door. I was so terrified I was losing you...I realized something about myself."
Another pause as MK gathered his thoughts.
"I never ever thought about where I came from. I never questioned that Pigsy wasn't my dad. He tried to tell me but I never listened. Ever. I just...I didn't question it. And then I learned I was made from Monkey King's stone. I don't know who or why and I can't unknow that. I started to think about those things and the curse made me realize I can't go back. Ever. I said I just wanted to be MK. To be a noodle delivery boy but I can't go back to just being that. I realized I'm empty. Whoever made me didn't include anything else. I was just made to be the Monkie Kid. No name, no family, nothing else. And I've been clinging to everyone around me, everyone who seemed to care even a little because I need them. I need you. Without all of you...I don't know who I am. Who I'd be. I panicked and I lashed out and I'm sorry I didn't believe you. I didn't trust you. I'm not going to make that mistake again. I want to fix this too. I want to work on it and for us to not hurt each other again. I want the Six Eared Macaque to be in my life because I care about you. I love you too. I know that now. And I want to be your North Star."
Re: 4 - regular MK, but after some time
Then things got worse.
MK felt his heart clench. He swallowed. He let Macaque finish and remembered the burning of the mountain, the maze and those feelings, and that bar. He looked down at his hands for a moment before he turned his eyes to Macaque.
"Your memories kinda shattered those boundaries I was trying to build. I thought I should build them because it was...better for us both. I thought I kept messing things up. That I pushed you too fast. Into fooling around before you were ready. Pushed for you to open up too fast. I know I was pushing. I was saying I wouldn't but I think I did."
MK took in a slow breath. "I know that you need Donnie and Korone and they need you. I need you too. I am so sorry I made you feel like I was rejecting you. I'm sorry I did and I pushed you away. I am so sorry. I don't want you to be behind a wall or a door. I was so terrified I was losing you...I realized something about myself."
Another pause as MK gathered his thoughts.
"I never ever thought about where I came from. I never questioned that Pigsy wasn't my dad. He tried to tell me but I never listened. Ever. I just...I didn't question it. And then I learned I was made from Monkey King's stone. I don't know who or why and I can't unknow that. I started to think about those things and the curse made me realize I can't go back. Ever. I said I just wanted to be MK. To be a noodle delivery boy but I can't go back to just being that. I realized I'm empty. Whoever made me didn't include anything else. I was just made to be the Monkie Kid. No name, no family, nothing else. And I've been clinging to everyone around me, everyone who seemed to care even a little because I need them. I need you. Without all of you...I don't know who I am. Who I'd be. I panicked and I lashed out and I'm sorry I didn't believe you. I didn't trust you. I'm not going to make that mistake again. I want to fix this too. I want to work on it and for us to not hurt each other again. I want the Six Eared Macaque to be in my life because I care about you. I love you too. I know that now. And I want to be your North Star."