[Katsuki listens to Izuku quietly, staring at the sand next to him as his best friend tells him that it's okay to be figuring this stuff out. That it's not his place to feel left out, and that he didn't in the first place anyway. That it doesn't replace their closeness, and that it's just... a different kind of closeness.
His finger starts to draw a little circle in the sand as he thinks about what to say. Always having a hard time with anything that isn't directly related to being a Hero. He's so grateful that his best friend was understanding and could tell that it was hard for him to talk about this, though. He's reassuring, and saying exactly the right things to quell Katsuki's worries. So Katsuki doesn't have to feel embarrassed or weird or like he shouldn't be allowing himself this kind of happiness.]
...thanks, Deku. I think I needed to hear.... well. Everything, honestly.
[He looks up from the sand, drawing his hand back and resting it in his lap for the time being instead. Feeling a little less restless.]
It's stupid but... I think I've been worried that I ain't Bakugo Katsuki anymore. My arm, this vampire thing, being all mushy gushy with another guy from my class? It's all changed who I am so much, and I can't even see myself in the mirror anymore to check if I still look like me.
[A lot has happened in a short period of time, and he's not really had enough time to process it himself... and of course on top of that, one of the side effects of being a dumb vampire is the lack of a reflection. It really hasn't been helping Katsuki... at all.]
But if Deku's here telling me that nothing's gonna change even if I'm all lovey-dovey, and he's not looking at me like I'm a stranger despite missing an arm... then I guess that means it's gotta be okay. And that I'm still the same Kacchan that I'll always be.
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His finger starts to draw a little circle in the sand as he thinks about what to say. Always having a hard time with anything that isn't directly related to being a Hero. He's so grateful that his best friend was understanding and could tell that it was hard for him to talk about this, though. He's reassuring, and saying exactly the right things to quell Katsuki's worries. So Katsuki doesn't have to feel embarrassed or weird or like he shouldn't be allowing himself this kind of happiness.]
...thanks, Deku. I think I needed to hear.... well. Everything, honestly.
[He looks up from the sand, drawing his hand back and resting it in his lap for the time being instead. Feeling a little less restless.]
It's stupid but... I think I've been worried that I ain't Bakugo Katsuki anymore. My arm, this vampire thing, being all mushy gushy with another guy from my class? It's all changed who I am so much, and I can't even see myself in the mirror anymore to check if I still look like me.
[A lot has happened in a short period of time, and he's not really had enough time to process it himself... and of course on top of that, one of the side effects of being a dumb vampire is the lack of a reflection. It really hasn't been helping Katsuki... at all.]
But if Deku's here telling me that nothing's gonna change even if I'm all lovey-dovey, and he's not looking at me like I'm a stranger despite missing an arm... then I guess that means it's gotta be okay. And that I'm still the same Kacchan that I'll always be.
Right?