Eren had a handle on his emotions. Or rather, he shoved them all in a weird repression box and refused to feel anything. Anger, sometimes, though not as loud as he had when he was younger. The world broke him as surely as it broke Reiner. They just wear it very differently. Reiner hasn't yet seen it, Eren's blank face in Liberio, but he's heard him speak here, soft and even and not constantly screaming. That glassy eyed zone out is part of it, though. Eren doesn't have anywhere near as good a handle on that time thing as he'd like to.
The incident with the metal titans, memories melding and spilling all over the place, has made that shitty repression coping mechanism nearly impossible. He has always felt too much too strongly, and the entire world will pay/has paid the price for it. This one doesn't have to, but the people around him…well.
Eren catches Reiner watching his mouth again. He wipes his mouth on the back of his hand, again something done purposefully, a promise and a threat, skin so close to teeth. Of course he doesn't do anything insane. It's a perfectly normal gesture (if you're a brat with no manners ignoring your napkin!). But they aren't normal, and Eren just can't seem to stop himself from being like this.
He raises an eyebrow at the question. Curse of Ymir. Right, they call it that.
"I don't know," he says. "By that timer I have until I'm 23."
It's an answer that he knows leaves more questions, too many things to wonder about the future. Oh well! He just goes back to eating his noodles.
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The incident with the metal titans, memories melding and spilling all over the place, has made that shitty repression coping mechanism nearly impossible. He has always felt too much too strongly, and the entire world will pay/has paid the price for it. This one doesn't have to, but the people around him…well.
Eren catches Reiner watching his mouth again. He wipes his mouth on the back of his hand, again something done purposefully, a promise and a threat, skin so close to teeth. Of course he doesn't do anything insane. It's a perfectly normal gesture (if you're a brat with no manners ignoring your napkin!). But they aren't normal, and Eren just can't seem to stop himself from being like this.
He raises an eyebrow at the question. Curse of Ymir. Right, they call it that.
"I don't know," he says. "By that timer I have until I'm 23."
It's an answer that he knows leaves more questions, too many things to wonder about the future. Oh well! He just goes back to eating his noodles.