If it makes you feel any better, every so often I fall asleep for a few decades and wake up with no memories or personality. It's a mixed blessing at the very least.

What sort of magic do you have? Aside from making people drool over you, I mean. ...Which also sounds like a mixed blessing, really. I sort of get it. Maybe.

[ Never being sure that someone was with you because of you and not because of a charm sounds less than fun. That's similar to why Saya never believed her Chevalier could really love her until he disobeyed her over the matter, she couldn't be sure it wasn't the call of her blood compelling him. ]